stop complaining..please...

i am so tired...
i cannot take it sometimes...
i hate it when they compare me with others...
expecially when my mom and sister is doing it...
everytime i think about it...
my tears keep rolling down...
i sometimes scolded my self...
why did i go to further my studies?

maybe i should hav just stayed back here...

doing hair and just do hair...
maybe my mom would hav stop treating me like this...
i hate it when she say things like..
look at ur cousin...
so rajin...study and work at the same time...

it makes me feel so tired...and pressure....

i am loosing my self confidence everyday...

and everytime they said thoes words....

i hav no one to turn to right now....

no one to talk to....

by right i should be happy and content....

but...

what can i do...

when i dont hav the place and the things i need to do the things i am supposed to?

it's not like i wanna stay at home everyday...

i love money....

and i would spend 24/7 of my time working my butt off for money...

but i just cant...

she's the one who asked me to come back

and help out at home for 1 month

then only go back for the exam...

but now...

it seems like she forgot what she had said to me...

i feel like maybe i should hav just stayed back at kl...

and work 1st...

sigh...

i am so confused and sad...

i keep scold my self...

mom did so many things for u...

you hav no right to complain...

you hav no right to feel sad...

but why am i still like this...

i feel like i am breaking down....

i should stop complaining....

she wants me to go australia to work...

and i said okay...

i should stop feeling like this...

it's rude...

*slaps self*

stop crying...

ur not supposed to be selfish...

she did this is for ur own good...

Time's up! i'll miss u all~

weeeeeeeeeeee~
time is running out...
i'm going back soon...
very soon!

i wonder....

what's going to happen when i go back?
how would my life be?
there's nothing much to keep me in kl...
no love...
no future....

but there's one thing i cant let go...
my friends...
i noticed...
people who's close with me...
their name always end with a tine/rine... LOLZ!
like Christine,Katherine...

i got a kai jeh also~
Joan~ she's good to me...
always bring me go gatherine and stuff...
but i don like to go...=X
cos i donno them...LOLZ..!
and they always talk about game stuff...
expecially Mo Siang...WHICH
i quitted long time ago!!

which always makes me feel...
akward when i'm at the gathering...
but it's okay...
atleast i got to spend time with her...
but nowadays....
hmm....
i don go out with her much anymore...
maybe bcos of her new bf...
she always ffk me recently...
untill i'm fed up...
so tired..
waiting n waiting n waiting..
but then kena cancel at last minute...

=.="

sigh...
times at kl...
pretty hard to forget...
i'll cherish everytime left with my friends... ^^
till next time we meet again!!
which is......

November!!!

but not sure which day~

lolz~

ticket havent buy yet~
weeeeeeeeeeeeee~

hmm~
i think it's time for bed~
ta!!
love u all! ^^
i will miss u guys!
please don forget me...
eventhou i'm not the most perfect friend u guys had...
but u guys are sure the best friends i had!!^^
i really enjoyed spending time with u guys!

something sweet...something fine...

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. (True...)

Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.

What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?

If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?

Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.

You can only go as far as you push!

Actions speak louder than words.

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. (So so true...)

Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.

Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.

A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.

Some people make the world special by just being in it.

Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.

True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its from the one your thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.
LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.


____________________________________

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Oopsiess!!

oops!
i let this blog died~
=D
was lazy to update.
so....
how am i?
i finish my makeup course.
i graduated! wuhuuu!!! ^^
been to places...
bah~
donno what i'm doing here...
donno what to talk about,
or where to start from!
life totally sux!

but then....
not really~
i do know i'm stronger...
and more wise in relationship things..
been single for sometime now...
heck!
why wanna get tied down so soon?
i'm leaving here soon anyways!

so am just gonna spend time with my friends..
go to as many place as i can~
take as many pictars as i can~
meet as many people as i can~
party as much as i CAN!!
learn as much as i can~
and do as much of anything as i can! =D

life is short....
live it to the MAX!

okay~
thats all folks! ^^
nitess!

A total Mixup day!

I am back in KL!
went to JPN to get my New IC this morning~
when i reached~
i pass them the temp one...
they said...
the IC is in miri lah...
so i was like APA?!
it's imposible! i had specificly told them to pass the ic to the maju juntion branch!
the gurl said wait ah~ i double check the system...
then after a few minutes...
she said yup~ see here? it's in miri branch....
i was like...hmm...
then how?
then she said u hv any family members in miri?
maybe they can pick it up for u...
so i said yah...my mom...
so she said ok...ask ur mom pick it up for u...
just mail her ur temp IC~
then she can pick up the IC for u...
i was like...hmmm...okay then... =/

what a day~
i had planned my day already~
take ic~ go bank~
get my bank card n everything~
mana tahu~ =/

so in the end~ i went to school~
meet up with my classmates~
went for brunch~
ate~ and went to class~
after class went to eat dinner~ and came home~
~.~"

It's not a game...

i never tot...u...
would say that to me...
i'm not playing any game with u...
i never lied to u about who i am...
but since u wount believe me...
then i cant do anything bout it also...
i am foolish enuf to think that
ur serious bout the things u said....
i never would have tot...
that you would say i am playing game with u...
tot some1 cared....
but ur just faking it....

Short UpDate~

tired...
helped mom and sis doing their hair~
but happy...cos i am not thinking too much...
don hv much time to think! =D
now i am missing some1...
he havent smsed me yet...
now still waiting...
^^
well~ going to take a shower~
and gonna hit the hay very soon~
=)